I am NOT strong enough

I am a very strong willed girl when it comes to certain things. As a matter of fact this weekend my Dad called me his strong willed daughter. Nothing makes me as mad as when someone makes a statement that because I’m a girl I can’t do it. This has caused me to get into many burn outs playing catch with guys who think I can’t throw harder, leaving bruises on my brother in law because he was teasing me, moving furniture that I was told was too heavy for me, taking care and mowing my yard when asked “sweetheart can I do that for you”,  and many more countless things just so I can say see I AM strong enough! BUT get ready because I am about to say something that I don’t say often, “I AM NOT strong enough!” Through a set of multiply events in my life this morning I got to my knees and said “God I can’t do it, I’m not strong enough, I mess up, I can’t handle it any longer.” Now I firmly believe God talks to everyone in different ways and at different times. I by no means think he answers me with a clear auto voice every time I cry out to him but within an instance I heard “I am your strength” my weary soul that was close to giving up was lifted, my heart that was broken felt like it was mending, and my strength that had diminished was renewed. I so often feel like I can do it, I don’t need anyone because quite frankly I do not want to be seem weak. But what a joy it is to be weak because in my weakness I find his strength.

“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”2 Corinthians 12:9-10

I always think I can do it on my own, I think that my strength is enough but it never is. It never is sufficient, and it runs out way too quickly. But God the creator of the earth who is all powerful gives power to the weak and weary. When I rely on my own strength, when I think I can do it on my own I become exhausted and feel as if I can’t go on. But Praise be to my God who renews my strength, who is powerful when I am weak. So now instead of saying I am strong enough, I am going to start saying HE is strong enough and I am weak, because when I am weak, then I am strong

“Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God,   the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength;   they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary;   they shall walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:28-31